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Eek, I haven’t posted in weeks…

Well I didn’t get the DWP job sadly. I wasn’t convinced that I wanted it really but as I keep saying, I’m feeling the pressure to get ANY job just now so success would have chilled me out a bit. I also just got another rejection letter-for one I did want…oh well! I really need to get Pitman’s finished but I’ve been so slack in getting any work done…I have no excuse really lol but after Sing Live is over with I am really going to crack down on job hunting and Pitman training!

I can’t BELIEVE Sing Live will be over after the weekend! I think it’s going to be a shock to the system, one performance being the lot. I’m having a mixture of feelings because I’m SO excited for Saturday but already worrying about what I’m going to do with myself when it’s over!! Rehearsals are going well…I went back to getting randomly nervous and then being fine and decided I couldn’t take any risks this being my first performance on this scale, so the doctor has prescribed me some very mild beta blockers (I can’t have full dosage due to the thyroxine I take…) They seem to be working wonders. I still get as nervous but they seem to help the visable effects like physical and vocal shaking and palm sweating, so now I can have the ‘good nerves’ and eliminate the bad’ns-HOPEFULLY!! We’re having a full run-through rehearsal tonight in Liverpool with all the solos in place so it’ll be our first time singing everything to an ‘audience’ so fingers crossed it’ll go well!

Ermm other news…it was Grace (one of my best mates)’s birthday on Friday and we went out in Liverpool on the Saturday night (which was also Valentine’s Day.) It was sooo long since I went on a night out and it was brilliant! We went to Alma de Cuba and then Revolution and got home at about 3:30am. Sadly nobody took a blimmin camera lol so there was no general opportunities for pouting and so forth Jon and I were hoping to go out for a meal or something yesterday to celebrate Valentine’s but it turned out we were too poor lol but it didn’t matter because we cooked up some AWESOME steaks and stuff instead…he got me some beautiful roses&lillies and also a digital photo frame which has mp3 and that you can watch films on and everything! Awesome…we actually agreed to just get token gifts but that plan seemed to go out of the window, I’m not exactly sure when!!

Ooh and yes, I got my Wii! I love the thing and have been playing on it a lot…I haven’t been too good at keeping up the Wii Fit over the last few days though-better get back on it!

Anyway, I’m really going to try to post again before Saturday-maybe on Friday if I have time…I’m off to to hairdresser for a preen and then I expect out for dinner but it’d be cool to document how I’m doing…and then again afterwards! Either way, I’ll try hard not to neglect for so long in the future…I need to put something on Penny Candy too as it still only contains one post lol-in my defence, I haven’t been able to shop much lately!

Laters

Sarah x

Hello all!

Time for an update, me thinks-although there’s not a whole lot to report really. I have just been upto the usual for the most part-singing, writing-correction- trying to write, seeing Jon…all that jazz!

It was the 3rd Sing Live soloist rehearsal last Wednesday and I was really happy with how it went. I felt I was much more confident and just generally better than in the last rehearsal. We finally learnt the Hairspray harmonies in detail which was a relief-although they still need a lot of work! Chess was better too-I managed to relax into it a lot more than usual…there were some teething problems with the accompaniment as the pianist was a stand-in and he seemed to be struggling slightly but he did a very good job considering he wasn’t well aquainted with the myriad of music he had to deal with! I feel a bit worried though because I feel like it’s all a bit of a gamble with me where nerves are concerned at the moment…sometimes I get up there and start singing and just can’t relax and I can hear it so much in my voice and sometimes I totally chill out and it goes totally smoothly. It’s so annoying because I know when I’m doing it right and how it needs to be but then another time I’ll get nervous again and I can’t seem to recreate the feeling. I know I can get the notes, I know I can sing the song but if it’s an unfamiliar environment or people I just lose it, so I’m worried that the show itself is going to be a problem, no matter how much I rehearse! The problem doesn’t just lie there, even in lessons I seem to have the same thing. I had my lesson with Matt today and I was singing For Good from Wicked-a song I have sung a billion times-and yet I was all over the place until I settled into it about the third time I sang it-I don’t know why this is…it’s like this mental block I have to get over. I’m so worried I won’t get over it by next month and will come off stage knowing it didn’t sound like I wanted and wishing I could do it again…just like my audition! Sorry…ramble ramble but it’s just really niggling away at me-I feel helpless to do a whole lot about it!

I spose the next biggest news is my new toy!! I bought a Wii at the weekend. Probably not a particularly sensible purchase given my lack of funds at the moment but anywho! I really wanted to get Wii Fit asap  because I’m desperate to get some exercising done and shift a bit of weight. The weather is just so bad and I feel so stupid running around the block that I just can’t kick myself into action (I know, I know-bad excuse quite possibly!) I vow to stick to a hardcore Wii Fit regime though! This means doing the exercises that actually will burn the fat. I also hope that starting a good bit of exercise now will improve my breathing where singing is concerned and make me less likely to come down with a cold before the big night (you’ve know idea how paranoid I am about this-I haven’t had one this winter yet *touches all the wood in sight.*) My Dad’s been doing well with dieting lately, which has been making me eat better so that’s a start-I’m wondering if he’ll take to the Wii Fit as well! So yeah, in a nut shell, I was a little impatient and went out and bought it now rather than waiting a few weeks which I would have otherwise done…which would have been much more kind on my bank balance. So now, I’m a prisoner really for a few weeks-there’ll be very little going out and spending…anything, except what I absolutely have to for a good while-but hopefully it will be worth it!  This means a whole lot of cabin fever-I want a job so badly!

I do have the one prospect lined up…I passed the tests I mentioned in my last post for the DWP job, so I have an interview for that post on Friday! I’m hoping that will go well but the competition is set to be pretty stiff because there are at least 20 applicants-for the one position I think! But hey, you never know I suppose and I will certainly be giving it my best shot!

Sarah x